I am back...

A minute has passed since I last posted. Reason. I really feel fucked up. I wonder if you heard the final soundtrack of the movie Alfie. Where he walks down by the river and the music plays in reflection of his desperate cry and screwed up situation. Right now I can feel the same music going on. And I have no idea whats wrong. The way I am talking and acting is simply not me. Its very much an unintentional and uncontrollable act for some unknown reasons. I can't explain my feelings now cos I just feel screwed.What on earth is wrong!!!!!! I went to sleep with the same kind of feeling the night before. The last thing I remember before I sleep was me telling wong that my soul stinks. WTF. haiz!!!!!!!!!